Life Behind the Lights

Warning. Standby. Go.

20-something years old. Biromantic Asexual. Cisgendered female.
Stage Manager. Introvert. Nerd. Sometimes writer.

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
creeps in this petty pace from day to day
to the last syllable of recorded time

- William Shakespeare, Macbeth



Lessons you only learn once.

the brat throwing the cat in deserved that

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— 24 minutes ago with 43862 notes
#Oh no  #kids  #I literally just sat here watching all these going 


It’s okay to not like sex.

It’s okay to be sex repulsed.

It’s okay to not want to try sex at all ever.

It’s okay to be like this. You don’t have to be asexual to be sex repulsed. And being sex-repulsed is perfectly fine. If you don’t want to have sex then that’s okay. It’s all okay.

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— 1 hour ago with 5872 notes
#asexuality  #sex repulsion 


A.I.M agents on lunch break, part II. 

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— 3 hours ago with 2802 notes
#avengers  #giggle giggle giggle 

So I was explaining my gender-fluidity to my grandmother

Me:So sometimes I'm a boy, but sometimes I'm a girl.
Grandma:I have enough idiot granddaughters already
Grandma:But I also have enough idiot grandsons, so having an idiot who isn't really either one is kind of refreshing.
*then later*
My mom:Alex, can you come pick up these LEGOs?
Me:Yeah... *doesn't move at all*
Grandma:Katie, go pick up the LEGOs
Me:Yeah, alright *goes to pick up LEGOs*
Grandma:See, you addressed the boy, but I addressed the girl. Boys are lazy, girls get crap done.
— 4 hours ago with 158523 notes
#gender  #gender-fluid  #this is awesome  #forever reblog 
It’s Time to Get Healthy

I’m housesitting right now for one of my former professors, and on Friday mornings, they have a woman who comes to clean their house. She’s an older woman, very kind, and I spent a few minutes talking to her when she first arrived this morning. I let her know that I’d be upstairs, but I might leave the house to go for a run in a bit. She laughed and looked at me and said “Not that you need to be any skinnier!”

I laughed it off, like I always do, and took the statement for the compliment I knew it was meant to be. However, the fact of the matter is, body shaming comes in all forms, including towards skinny people like myself.

At somewhere between 5’-8” and 5’-9”, I weigh 110 pounds, as of my last trip to the doctor. In other words, I’m significantly underweight. There are a wide variety of reasons for this, not a single one of which is vanity. I have a very high metabolism, in addition to taking medication which has a side effect of appetite suppression. On top of THAT, because I am so tiny, I have a very small stomach, so eating larger quantities of food in one sitting is difficult for me.

I know it’s the opposite problem a lot of people have, but that doesn’t make it any less real for me that I cringe every time I go to the doctor’s office, afraid that I might have lost weight instead of having gained it.

So I’ve made a commitment to myself to get healthier, and to start treating my body better, starting today.

When I woke up today, it was a beautiful morning, and I decided it was time to get serious about actually getting the exercise I keep saying I will. I want to get into a routine of working out, so I can build muscles and put on weight that way. I want to start eating better, cooking more, eating smaller meals more frequently so I get the calories I need to both gain weight and sustain my increased activity levels. I want to be a better me!

So as soon as I finish typing this, I’m going to grab my iPod and go out for a jog. Not a long one, and not far, but over to where there will be a farmer’s market tomorrow, to prove to myself I can do it, and back. And on Monday, I’m going to start going out after I feed the dog and doing my new running program, because if I keep making the excuses that I don’t have my bike, or that I’m not at home, I’m never going to get healthy.

So, watch out world. Just because I’m skinny doesn’t mean I’m “healthy” - but it’s time that I changed that. One day at a time.

— 4 hours ago with 5 notes
#personal journal  #personal health  #working out  #body shaming happens to EVERYONE 


Buffy the Vampire Slayer: 4x04: Fear, Itself

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Is Robert Downey Jr’s facebook even real?

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— 21 hours ago with 111787 notes
#robert downey jr 

Fact: Toothless is the cutest thing ever, don’t deny it. 

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— 22 hours ago with 63849 notes
#how to train your dragon 2 

When this moment comes, I will be ready.


When this moment comes, I will be ready.

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— 1 day ago with 124950 notes
#yes please  #musicals 


my favourite relationships ★ simon and river (firefly)

i got a few letters at first but then i didn’t hear for months. finally i got a letter that made no sense. she talked about things that never happened, jokes that we never.. it was code. it just said… “they’re hurting us. get me out.

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— 1 day ago with 3611 notes
#firefly  #so much love